Outta My Mind .... Outta My Head ???

How long does it take to Not remember you own Mother's voice ??? I realized I can't "hear" it anymore .... she's only been gone for how many years ??? Twenty - nine .... 29 .... that is so hard to even think about !!!!! I can still see her though ..... little glimpses of things she used to do or ways she looked at me. I also realized I never "really" heard Joseph's but I can still hear it on occasion ( he calls out -- "hey Mom" ) .... will it be gone in eleven more ??? I heard Juanita's for the first time a few weeks ago .... I thought it was Dawn at first .... I never heard Juanita's either ( she called out "hey Mom" too ) .... will her voice leave me in another eight years ???

White .... Black .... Shades of Gray .......... Smiles .... Tears .... Shades of Gray .......... Happy .... Sad .... Shades of Gray .......... Clear .... Confused .... Shades of Gray .......... Day .... Night .... Shades of Gray .......... Sun .... Rain .... Shades of Gray .......... Life .... Death .... Shades of Gray .......... It matters not .......... Shades of Gray

argggggg is a new word for me .... never knew how to spell it .... :roll: .... I tried to link to my DD-I-L's blog - it's not on tblog .... sighsss ... today went fairly well ..... got all my W-M shoppin done with DD didn't spend much (less than $60) .... WOW ... of course most of it was sodas ..... most expensive thing I bought was a cart for the pantry ... it was $10 ..... had to stop at Home Depot for "mad scientist" gloves for a wood project I'm doing this week ... I have to clean the wood with some kinda acid before I can paint it b/c it is pressure treated wood . Then there is the new junker in the yard DS's old truck for another DS to fix his up with ..... 2 junkers just left the other day ..... so 2 gone 1 replaced still got 5 or more to get rid of .... MEN !!!! DH called ( again) today to see what youngest DS had gotten done today ... he's on spring break this week .... he got less done than we told the Dad guy ..... laffssss .... he will do it, just on his terms - but before the Dad gets home ---- I'll see to it !! It was so warm today (76) I put on shorts. It was hot in the house and I turned off the heat. Tomorrow it will be much cooler (53). I will turn on the heat before I go to bed. My FlyLady Group met today I did not go ... scared I guess to meet people from the net.... I bought DD, DS & self food from Fazoli's (pasta place) took me two sittings to eat it all . I put together my new cart .... ok so I'm not impressed with it but it helps me keep the pantry straighter instead of just tossed in there. :D

Why do I feel the need to write during the day when I do not have time and can find nothing in complete sentences at night ???? Everything is just all jumbled together , it is like a tornado in my head .... swirling to and fro .... incomplete thoughts raging there too , bits and pieces wanting and needing to get out ..... screaming to be turned loose ....... "free me ... free me" they plead!!! Ok, so I know the answer already ..... I have left things unfinished for too long .... projects, housework, etc . I am going to have to get them done and soon so I will have some peace and quiet ( in my head anyways ). I will try to make a list of what I want to write about during the day so I will have it at night. I do like my lists !!!! Ok and I like to put things off ... but I have to get them done!

Yeah so I said ..... I went to bed round midnight ( the second time - wasn't lucky the first time ) got up at 4AM it is now 12:22PM . I was goin back to bed decided to take meds at 9:30 . I got home around 7AM after takin hubby to work for out of state job ..... stopped n got a McGriddle for me n son for breakfast it was ok ..... hubby was home for 7 days he was gone for 9 weeks so I just knew I was gonna get Loved a lot .... yeah rightttt .. 3 times!! bull ... grumble .... growl ..... Men !!! drama , drama , drama if it wasn't for drama I'd have no life at all . :evil: Oh well ! so now I am off to bed for a nap . D-DIL I need some color here n other stuff too .

ok ... good grief .... how do I do this ..... ty D-DIL ... ok that's all for now as I am posting this to the Humor Topic List .... roflmbo