Outta My Mind .... Outta My Head ???

well i did not fix jello .... it all has red 40 in it ... some had yellow 6 .... i did fix kool-aid ... watermelon ... no cupcakes either .... and no i did not take any ty3 ..... i mowed the front lawn .... great for the knee pains and back pains and the shoulders pains ... if ya believe that i got some swamp land i wanna sell ya ...... i ran outta gas .... refilled it after i had me a smoke and pepsi break .... laffsssss ..... i saw da neighbors peeking thru the curtains .... i think they thought i was gonna slip n fall .... they'd laugh ..... i know they would .... i would have to laugh too ..... well i did laugh ..... it was hot out there .... i did get to play poker ... yeaaaaaaaaaaa .... the Easter names are soooo cute .... i had a good time at yahoo tonight ....

day before yesterday ...... I changed the commode seat ... I could not find a screw driver to fit so I used what I had and a pair of pliers ... I put on the original ... dumped the 4 month old one -- it had splits all round it and was pinchin my behind .... don't know why the boys is still good after 5 yrs .... I think maybe is cause his behind isn't as large as mine or the dad's ..... laffsssssss ..... his time is coming ..... laffsssss harder ..... I dug some in my flower bed again .... diggin up big clumps of weeds roots and all so I can transplant the weeds to the bank ... it worked last year why not this one tooo .... I took them up the bank ..... I have dug weeds for the last 3 days , today the boy helped me (cough-uh huh-cough) well he did help just not as much as I had hoped .... so today "I" tossed the big clumps up the bank ... the boy watched me , he did go up and place them root down ... then I climbed the bank and sewed some flower seeds and I walked sideways across the bank ..... so tomorrow I may not be able to walk or move ..... sheeshhhh ... I may take me a ty3 tomorrow if I hurt too bad ..... I'm going to put down some plastic under my rocks so the weeds aren't so bad inbetween the rocks .... then I be ready to watch the girls on Friday .... wonders if they eat jello ..... I fix it anyways if they don't I'll eat it .... hehehe .... I got em some watermelon kool-aid ... now wonders what to fix em to eat .... uuuummm that's how many meals... (3) yes I know .... oh and I need to fix them a snack ... I know maybe cupcakes ( don't tell them in case I don't fix that .... mean-ole-granmaw .... evil laff.... maybe thats where I got the witchy woman name .... LOL ...... granmaws just aren't what they used to be ...........

the man calls again tonight .... the boy answers da phone ... where's mom ?? .... why didnt she answer the phone ??? .... am i supposed to always n forever answer da phone .... noooo ... so he talks to da boy ... boy tells all about his upcoming competion .... he's excited ... gonna be in Nashville on his birthday .... competing .... stuff he hasnt told the dad yet .... stuff he found out today ... he has go to the other school after school to practice on the auto "the company" is sending to the other school .... almost every day for the next 2 1/2 weeks ... so he will be ready to win that scholorship ..... I talk to the man .... whatcha doin ..... same answer as always .... not much .... he is really excited about that trip isn't he ..... yep he is very excited about it ..... you outta go and watch him in Nashville .... ride the bus with him ... I can't ride the bus with him -- school insurance won't let me -- ..... yes they will , they used to let the parents .... lots has changed -- it's in school policy ... no .... have him ask to find out ... well follow the bus over there .... he'll have to find out first ..... they might not let me in "the place" where they havin the competion because of the "people" there ..... I'm gonna watch da girls Friday night ... ya are ,he laffs .... get you a hotel room n stay the night over there ... I'd need to know if I will be allowed to go .... well find out .... (boy standing over me)--- can I go to A's house .... ( I'm on the phone - I say) .... me off phone, boy leaves for A's house //// I came in got on the puter so I could play poker at yahoo was there maybe 15 mins ... bellsouth died again ..... sheeshhhh ...... ok I redialed ..... connected ..... yahoo was dead could not get into poker ... no one could it booted everybody ..... long time later .... yeaaaaa I got in ... we all talked a while , never did play poker .... some had their Easter names ... Jody's was cute so was Tay's .... they started leavin so I did too .... tried to get into tblog ... nope it was unable to find the www for it ..... so I went back to yahoo games and played yuma ... i kinda like it

the man calls again tonight .... the boy answers da phone ... where's mom ?? .... why didnt she answer the phone ??? .... am i supposed to always n forever answer da phone .... noooo ... so he talks to da boy ... boy tells all about his upcoming competion .... he's excited ... gonna be in Nashville on his birthday .... competing .... stuff he hasnt told the dad yet .... stuff he found out today ... he has go to the other school after school to practice on the auto "the company" is sending to the other school .... almost every day for the next 2 1/2 weeks ... so he will be ready to win that scholorship ..... I talk to the man .... whatcha doin ..... same answer as always .... not much .... he is really excited about that trip isn't he ..... yep he is very excited about it ..... you outta go and watch him in Nashville .... ride the bus with him ... I can't ride the bus with him -- school insurance won't let me -- ..... yes they will , they used to let the parents .... lots has changed -- it's in school policy ... no .... have him ask to find out ... well follow the bus over there .... he'll have to find out first ..... they might not let me in "the place" where they havin the competion because of the "people" there ..... I'm gonna watch da girls Friday night ... ya are ,he laffs .... get you a hotel room n stay the night over there ... I'd need to know if I will be allowed to go .... well find out .... (boy standing over me)--- can I go to A's house .... ( I'm on the phone - I say) .... me off phone, boy leaves for A's house //// I came in got on the puter so I could play poker at yahoo was there maybe 15 mins ... bellsouth died again ..... sheeshhhh ...... ok I redialed ..... connected ..... yahoo was dead could not get into poker ... no one could it booted everybody ..... long time later .... yeaaaaa I got in ... we all talked a while , never did play poker .... some had their Easter names ... Jody's was cute so was Tay's .... they started leavin so I did too .... tried to get into tblog ... nope it was unable to find the www for it ..... so I went back to yahoo games and played yuma ... i kinda like it

a used-up and worthless old woman ......... he called again tonight .... just to talk ..... he called Saturday night at 11:10 PM ... talked for over an hour ..... he was drunk again ..... I had woke up with the whopper headache I had went to bed with .... so again this morning I had another hangover headache ..... he drinks I get the headache ..... he told me things over and over and over last night .... tonight he asked me questions he asked me last night .... I told him again .... then I asked him " what you don't remember ?" ... he usually does .... of course I'm the one with "most-timers" it is so bad I have to write things down ... then lose the paper . .... remember again , write it down again then try and do it then . I just have too many things going on in my head .... it is full ...... but then it is always full of crap .... useless information . nothing to help me get a job ... I have No skills ... he wouldn't let me work .... "you stay home and raise the kids and take care of everything" .... well I did , the last one is almost 18 .... then What ??? .... 'ell if I know ..... no skills , too old , worthless , too worn out to work ( bad shoulders and back ) ..... yep that's me . that's the way I feel sometimes .... is just a fact ... nothing else . last night he hinted at me getting a job ..... I laughed to myself I had to reallllly bite my tongue ....... he throws it up in my face very often " you have a high school deployment " (he can not or will not use the right word) , yes I went and got my GED 10 yrs after I should have graduated and what did it get me .... not a dang thing ! he had a fit when he found out I had went to day school at the chruch so I could get my GED .... just because I wanted to get it just for me no-one else so I would have "finished" something . there is just too much going on that I can not control .... I do like my control ( what little I have of it ) ..... I did not tell him what I was thinking about , worrying about , hurting for ..... he only half listens and half understands then fills in the rest with what he Thinks is going on and why . the world does not revolve around him .... people do not do what he wants just seconds before he thinks of it .... if we did it would be done wrong anyway ...... there is no pleasing the man ! he did seem in a good mood last night and tonight . I did worry for a while last night , he says " you never tell me how much money I have in the bank" .... man oh man I could hear him cussing all the way from Okla. .... I never save enough .... well I did not tell him . so now he wants to send his oh so poor brother $500 to make brother feel better ... we just scrape by ... oh so poor brother has stocks and things ..... it would be to make himself feel better , be a big man ( in his own eyes ) .... he expects his sister to go in half for oh so poor brother .... she might . I wish we had stocks and things for his retirement ..... but I save money ... he spends money ....... after-all it is his !!!! I love him but he drives me crazy !!!!!!!

I had a long blog written out ... just moved the mouse to "pick a topic" then ........BLUE ..... page was gone .... I normally get that in Yahoo at the poker table ... I hit any key and return to the normal screen of Yahoo .... ok so my puter does not like blogging ..... stupid puter ! I will try to remember to write in wordpad then copy n paste to my blog maybe that will work . maybe I will rewrite my blog if I can remember what it was about .... sheeshhhhhh